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where we are and where we’ve been

March 3, 2010

it’s a funny thing
and not in a haha kind of way
more like
holy shit where did all those white hairs come from and is that? a love handle?
when did my cute cheek dimples move south to my ass?
wasn’t i only 17 yesterday?

kind of way

this time last year, i was landing at heathrow
just me, a back pack, 5 open weeks, 3 countries to explore and a sense of adventure

this time two years ago, i was getting off a train
just me, a suit case, 12 years draped heavy over my heart and a sense of desperation

what a roller coaster ride this life is *
ups and downs
ebbs and flows
holding on and letting go

and to think that every single decision you ever made
paved a nice little winding path to this spot, right here
any time you’ve said a simple yes or no
stayed in, went out
turned left, turned right
forged ahead or shied away
it’s enough to paralyze you in place
ah but inaction is an action too

and so you

plant seeds and watch them grow
and who knows what kind of fruit will fall from the tree
if it’s apples and oranges, you take a big juicy bite
if it’s lemons, you cut your losses and make yourself a gin and tonic
lift your hands up and scream on the way down
knowing that the ride is bound to go up again

this time next year, who knows where i’ll be?
but i know whatever i do now will pave the way for then
and i hope i don’t have so much damn baggage when i get there

(*video via swirly and well worth the watch)

13 Comments leave one →
  1. kat permalink
    March 3, 2010 4:31 pm

    so well said and truthfully an echo of my emotions so freshly on this side of another year passed – hope i learn to pack light soon. LOVE

  2. March 3, 2010 10:21 pm

    funny i thought about that on 2/14 as it was the date i moved back home after living away for 16 years. it’s been a year of building for me.

    here’s to a beautiful year – wherever it takes us.

  3. March 3, 2010 10:55 pm

    As I begin the journey of going back to work after being home with my kids for the past eight years, this totally resonates. A beautiful post, full of truth.

  4. March 4, 2010 2:21 am

    What a beautiful, thought-provoking, WONDERFUL post. Never keep your hands and arms inside the ride: get out there!

  5. March 4, 2010 11:54 am

    so true and so well said ~ xoxo

  6. Alison permalink
    March 4, 2010 12:07 pm

    So true and nerve wracking. Every time you write like this I feel like I need to get OUT THERE and DO SOMETHING. You always inspire. Thanks.

    And your second photo has always been one of my favorites bringing with with a beautiful moment in time that I’ll never forget. Love it.

  7. Elizabeth permalink
    March 4, 2010 1:54 pm

    I LOVE you– loved this post– love the photos– you are my SHINING star!!

  8. March 4, 2010 6:28 pm

    cute you … packing light, its something i am learning ever so slowly … trading in the big ol eggplant suitcase for a small pink number 😉

  9. Helena permalink
    March 4, 2010 10:07 pm

    My life is currently cracking wife open but in a positive way. Things are falling into place, I am growing, and slowly I am changing once again. And it’s a big change… I can feel that it will be huge! Your words came on a perfect day. Thank you!

  10. March 5, 2010 11:30 am

    wait, when did your hair get that long, has that been since just september? you are scrumptious, and you have the most sexiest neck. (was it weird for me to say that?)

    wherever you are next year will be even more beautiful than today, or yesterday. xo

  11. March 5, 2010 3:01 pm

    I love every bit of this.
    So much truth.
    Life 🙂

  12. March 7, 2010 1:33 pm

    ah, hell, i missed this four days ago? probably because it is the perfect sunday morning mantra. right here, right now. all things leading to this moment. you, a blessed gift and a favorite, among the stars along the path.

    god, i love you.


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